What to do now about having a family?

You know, I still want a baby. And so does my husband. So what do we do?

I don't really know.

We batted around the idea of donor embryo. This is where the product of someone else's IVF is donated to someone like me to use. I don't know much about it. Or even if it is done where we live. Or if my RE does it at all.

It seems like a viable solution.

Still, my immediate family is expanding but my house is still empty.

And the longing is still there. It isn't really getting any better. I am just learning to cover it up and hide it better I think.

We live in suburban family land here. There are preggos and babies everywhere. Kids rule this town and we re sort of like the outcast. There is us and the old people. Either way, we don't fit in.

That doesn't bother me as much as this obvious daily reminder that I can't have kids of my own. And the clock is still ticking away.

But, either way, it is time to start looking into other options. At least to get some ideas.

I want my baby back. My baby. The one my husband and I made. That is too much to ask for isn't it? Oh, it is so sad. It makes me sad this longing. Oh well...

Cluck...