Pregnant again

No, not me.

My sister in law this time. Is pregnant.

My sister is due in Aug. (her 2nd)

And NOW.....

My sister in law is due in February. Her second also.


Around the time we would have been due had it stuck around.

They both conceived about 1 year after their 1st one was born. Nice for them huh?
Can I leave the country now?

Why me?

So happy for them.
So sad for me.

Holidays will be fun this year.
Feeling so depleted. So defelated.

Feel like I am being beaten around the head. Slapped silly. (is That even possible).

I guess they were anxious about telling us.
They needed to be.

As if we were the infertile problem. The white elephant in the room. The moose on the table. The BIG RED TRUCK SO TO SPEAK.

Avoidance. Dispair. Mistaken. Envious.

Both DH and I feel bad we are so anger at them for being able to conceive so EASILY>

WHY IS IT SO HARD FOR US?

It isn't getting better. ONly worse.

Can We leave the country now?

I think I might.

CLUCK